Paradox

How some days differ from the usual ones
We don't realize
There are days when
You are tied up with A hundred things
And just want to grab a cup of hot coffee

Fresh air is what you need
These are the times when
People are making you mad
You are just too worked up
And want to bash
Every person around you

These are the testing times....
And then, there are times
When you are totally alone
Completely at peace with
The world and yourself

And this is the exact time
When you are thinking of
The busy schedule you had once
You suddenly start missing
All the excitement around

The adrenaline rush you got
When you achieved
The smallest possible target set
Your heart starts wanting All of that
You actually start loving your enemy
And feel his way of defeating you was
So unfailingly unfair, but cute

This makes me realize
What a pathetic social animal
Man is!!!
He can't stay with or without people
He loves, hates, cares, ignores
Fights, defeats, wins, loses,
Abuses, smiles, cries, hugs,
Wipes tears and cries along again....

But there is no way he overcomes it
And maybe the day
He overcomes all this
He maybe called GOD!!!

Conversation

He says, "Change your nature, it will harm you in life"
I say, "I can't help it, its a genetic problem"
He says, "Its no use being so stubborn about things and trying to prove your point always"
I say, "But I am not wrong, rather everyone else is!!! I am following the right path"

He says, "But tht is not how the society works,
You need to understand that. Be silent, be quiet and don't be such a fire"
I say, "Which means you stay silent and let things happen the way they do,
Let the bad guys out rule you"

To which He says, "You are not here to change the world,
You are here to live and live well...
Protect yourself all the way from what is wrong
Don't get involved in it and don't let it affect you in any manner
Be good and Do good
And if anyone tries to disrupt your peace of mind
Don't leave them, destroy their happiness"

But then, again, I tell him the same thing, "This isn't how it should be,
This isn't right because you are not standing up for what the right thing is.."
He says, "But this is how it works,
LEARN THE RULES OR QUIT THE GAME
Learn them fast as life does not give you chances again and again"

I am clueless to what I tell him now
I don't have an answer to what he says
Maybe I must learn the rules of this game now
Maybe, this is how it actually works...

Puppet

Everyone tells me to grow
They want me to grow fast
Be smart, mature and intelligent like them
They want me to think like they do
Make decisions and be independent

So I abide by that and be
more mature than my age
And do whatever they feel
Is the right thing to do

I think, I evaluate,
I implement, I CONCLUDE
I do what I feel is right
And now they say
I have outgrown my age

I behave over smart to make my own decisions
Then why did I get the liberty in the first place?
These confused lot of elders I tell you
They don't let you live the way you want
And eventually blame you for your lack of individuality
And that tint of uniqueness

Am I not a free spirited person?
Or do I still behave like a
Lifeless PUPPET in their hands??

Viciousness

He always takes away the people I like the most and
He continues to do that over and over again
Never does He get tired of the fact that
Atleast once He must let go of his habit

But as it is said habits are difficult to break
So too never do I get tired of trying to defy Him
But I seldom succeed
Maybe He is right in taking away people
who are not worth the effort

But then, why does it pain deep down inside
At the loss of these people
How do I make myself understand
That they were never mine

But just a dangerous spider web which
Kept me enticed for a short span of time
Why the same thing again and again???

Social Butterfly

Too much of socializing
Ooohh!!! It can kill me
With every other friend asking me,
Hey!!! Wassup??
What are you doing this Saturday?
Let's go out for a movie.
Hey Night out! Please Please...
Do you like dancing?
Lets join Salsa class...

Aaggrrrhhhhh
It makes me mad
Do you see a "I AM ALWAYS AVAILABLE" tag on my forehead?
Or am I so vulnerable that you always target me?
I neither have a puppy faced expression on my face which says,
I am so lonely

Then WHY ? why? WHY?
Stop bugging and irritating me all the time
Don't behave like a possessive boyfriend
Who is always after my freedom
I ain't jealous of you and
I ain't wanna be every happy and smiling as you are

I just need my mental peace
I just need to be with my inner self
Silence is all what I want
Aur har 1 friend zaroori nahi hota hai yaar!!!
I ain't a social butterly.....

Guardian Angel

I can't narrow down his stature to words
I am unable to gather words for him
I seriously feel disillusioned about writing on him
Expressions fail to describe him
He is everything to me
Guide, philosopher, friend
What more do I say??

I can share my darkest secrets with him
Without a tinge of being afraid of him
He gives me courage, he gives me strength
There is not even an iota of doubt about it
Currently he calls me RHH - Right Handed Handicapped
But I call him Bodhi Satva - The Enlightened One
He is my Guardian Angel - Jijesh Nair

The Unlucky One

I saw her once on the station platform
She would be 6 or 7
Her big black eyes made me wonder...
How could someone disown her?
She advanced towards me on seeing me, near her
She stretched her tiny hand
In a state of complete misery
As compared to her tattered rags
The big-black prying eyes told a different story


They were full of hope and life
And I felt a positive vibe from her
I wanted to know her and why was she in that state?
I asked her why does she beg?
To which she had no answer
I asked her would she like to read
To which she said, "I need to ask my Didi..."

What a marvelous world we live in
It celebrates the girl child with a lot of fervor and enthusiasm
A world so developed
We call ourselves a rapidly developing nation
But then still why do we have
Such unlucky ones at every nook and corner of our Amazing World???

Wickedness

Compete with her as I always did
She surpassed my each and every attempt
The more I wanted to defeat her
The stronger she got
I wanted to pull her down and reign on her throne
I wanted to enjoy all that she owned and devastate her
But she always managed to be ahead of me
I was mad with jealousy
But she remained content

Then one day
Life took a U-Turn and turned in my favor
I got all what she had
I got all what I had longed for
Then I was the center of everything
The world revolved around me
I enjoyed every bit of the attention
I had longed for
I made her life living hell
and laughed at her misery

But when I look into the mirror
I notice something amiss
Among all the richness of the Universe
I find myself lonely
The wickedness of my inner self
Ooh!!! It can kill me
Her prying listless eyes, haunt me
What have I done to myself is what I ask
Is this what I had always wanted???
I was better a pauper than a queen....